I figured I should interrupt my Hawaii recaps for maybe a recap that's a little bit more important. Tomorrow we will be 12 weeks pregnant with precious Baby Layman and my goal is to have all the Hawaii recap & Reveal posts completed so I can start doing weekly updates! I actually wrote this post the morning after I took the positive test and it's quite funny to me because I'm almost positive I was still in shock. Everything is very factual with no emotion thrown in, and I can guarantee I've felt some serious emotions, from joy to fear to complete peace, about bringing this baby into the world.
So...without further ado, my emotionless factual recount of my first big reveal...this is all happened on April 12, 2011...
Last night, right after work and before Nick got home I went to Walmart and purchased 2 digital pregnancy tests. I had assumed I was pregnant seeing as I was 4 days late & that's just not normal for me.
We had been trying only for about 2 months and really only about a month since I was so sick during the early part of March. We had finally decided to just let God do the planning and when he wanted us to get pregnant, we would.
Apparently he wanted us to get pregnant sooner rather than later.
So...after almost hyperventilating when reading "pregnant" on the digital screen, I put my strategy into place for telling Nick when he got home from work. So far I think that was the longest 30 minutes of my life. A few months ago we had discussed some options on how to reveal a potential pregnancy to our parents and Nick had the idea of putting 2 different paint swatches on the wall of our future nursery and asking our parents to come over. We would then take them in the room and ask if they had a preference...blue or pink? However, we decided that might be too complicated and I'd never be able to keep a straight face for that long....so I stole the idea.When I grabbed the pregnancy tests at Walmart, I also walked back to the paint department and grabbed a pink & blue paint sample. After the positive results, I tacked them to the wall and waited. And waited. And waited some more. When I heard him arrive I sat down and waited for him to call my name. I called back and asked him to come in the room because I had something to show him. I simply sat on the bed, pointed at the wall, and said...so...do you have a preference? The look on his face was priceless. I honestly don't remember exactly what he said...But it was something like "Really?" Oh my gosh! That's awesome! All Iknow is that I couldn't have asked for a better reaction. My husband, the man I'm sharing my life with, and the one who I'll now be building a family with, took away all my fears at that moment as his face lit up at the thought of a child.
I may have shed a few tears in between mentioning that I was super excited, but super scared all at the same time. I don't think either one of us thought it would happen so quickly, and if I'm being completely honest, I had these unsupported fears that we wouldn't be able to get pregnant at all.
Fast forward to the next morning, the morning I actually wrote this post...This morning was a bit rough. I mean I had kind of recognized that one little test would change everything and honestly, we were both incredibly happy with our lives. We had an amazing marriage before, why would we want to go and screw that up? What if I can't be a good mom? What if I'm in the hospital on Christmas Day? What if everything doesn't go perfectly? My precious husband reminded me that our life was about to get much, much better and that everything was gonna be ok, that all my fears were ok and even he was a little bit scared. But he then quickly reminded me of how exciting this was going to be and how together, along with God, this was going to be an amazing start for the rest of our lives. Oh how I needed those words!
And of course now, I wouldn't change anything for the world! I am excited about the idea of being a mom and experiencing all those firsts with our little one. God has given us an incredible gift and I only hope I can live up to His expectations of me as a mother. It's going to be an adventure...that's for sure!
I'm so thankful I took the time to write this all down, the emotions from that experience are still so fresh in my mind but I'll admit, the shock has worn off and been replaced by some very real excitement and elation! I can't wait to share the other reveals with you...they are oh so much fun!
I'll leave you with this little hint of how we told our parents...